i can’t tell you why i cry. i can’t tell you why i’m sad anymore. there’s no rhyme or reason or anything to grasp as to why i am sad. i am sad because i am sad. i’m sad when i’m happy, i’m sad when i’m not. i am sad. no matter how much progress i make i find myself in the same spot eventually. and here i am.

and now what’s become of us? we are strangers. someone who once meant so much to me is now someone who i can barely hold a conversation with, as much as i’d like to. i’m sure one day, when the air is clear and the sun finally decides to shine, maybe a cup of coffee would be in order. but for now: space. i still hope that one day we might be able to hold a quiet, understanding friendship. i think that’d be nice and easy. 

i need something. and i don’t know what that something is but i just feel a strong need. a pulling and tugging in some ominous direction. something is coming my way, i can feel it. let’s hope it’s good.